\herosection{The Forgotten Lamp}{chapters/2026.04.07-TheForgottenLamp/image/the-forgotten-lamp.jpg}

\DROPCAP{../../dropcap_c/dropH.png}e had, \\
by his own quiet estimation, \\
everything in order.

Not arrogantly.\\
He would have been the first to say so.\\
He simply had a gift for clarity — \\
for seeing through the fog of sentiment \\
that obscured so much of parish life \\
and getting to what actually needed doing.\\
His professors had noted it.\\
His rector had noted it.\\
He had been assigned the inventory \\
precisely because he could be trusted \\
to see clearly when others couldn't.

The side chapel lay beyond a narrow arch \\
off the north transept — \\
a place that had once been carefully kept \\
and was now abandoned to the cobwebs.\\
Plaster cracked in long, branching lines.\\
Dust blanketed the floor.\\
The niche at the center stood empty, \\
marked only by a cleaner patch of stone \\
where something had stood for years \\
and then been taken away.

He stepped in, \\
glanced once around — \\
and stopped.

A small red lamp was burning in the corner.

Not brightly.\\
Not enough to light the room.\\
Just a steady, contained glow, \\
as though it belonged to another order of light \\
altogether.

The lamp hung from a simple bracket \\
beside the empty niche — \\
the sort of sanctuary lamp one might expect \\
before a sacred sacrament.\\
But there was no altar, \\
no baptismal font, \\
no sign that the chapel had served \\
any liturgical purpose in years.\\
He reached up and turned the glass gently.\\
The flame did not flicker.\\
And there didn't seem to be any oil in it.

He made a note — \\
then paused, \\
pencil still touching the page.

If the rector heard about this \\
before he had a sensible explanation, \\
it could become something.\\
A \emph{sign}.\\
The chapel would fill with people \\
lighting candles and leaving flowers, \\
and the whole business \\
of clearing it out before Pentecost \\
would dissolve into precisely the kind of muddle \\
he had been sent to prevent.

He closed the notebook.\\
He would handle it quietly.

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He asked around that afternoon — \\
carefully, \\
sideways, \\
the way he had learned \\
to ask things without planting ideas.\\
The sacristan shook his head.\\
No oil had been ordered for that chapel \\
in a long time.\\
Perhaps before Father Martin, rest his soul.\\
Maybe even before that.\\
Two older parish women he consulted looked \\
at him with mild surprise, \\
neither hinting at a secret.

That evening, \\
he returned and looked again — \\
checking for a flask, \\
a feed line, \\
anything he might have missed.\\
The flame did not flicker when he leaned near it.\\
The housing was closed and ordinary.

He went to bed telling himself \\
something would turn up.\\
A pious parishioner.\\
A forgotten arrangement.\\
Something accountable.

The next evening, \\
he checked again.\\
It was still burning.

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On the fourth day, \\
he brought his toolbox.

He worked the bracket loose, \\
lifted the lamp carefully from the wall, \\
and carried it to the window \\
where the light was better.\\
The mount was smooth — \\
no orifice, \\
no fitting, \\
no sign of any feed mechanism.\\
He opened the housing \\
and examined the interior.\\
Empty.\\
No reservoir, \\
no wick beyond the one \\
that had no business burning.\\
The wall behind was smooth too, \\
except for the two bracket holes.

He stood there a moment, \\
the lamp in his hands.

Then he remounted it, \\
deliberately left it unlit, \\
and opened his notebook.

\emph{Lamp examined.\\
No fuel source.\\
Remounted.\\
Extinguished.}

Clean.\\
Accountable.\\
He closed the notebook and left.

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He slept poorly.

Before dawn, \\
he was awake, and — \\
without quite deciding to — \\
he was dressed, \\
then walking, \\
then inside.

The nave was still dark.\\
Early Mass would not begin for another hour.\\
He walked directly to the north transept, \\
passed beneath the narrow arch, \\
and entered the side chapel.

The lamp was burning.

Exactly where he had left it.\\
Exactly as it had always been.

He felt no rush of certainty.\\
No revelation.\\
No triumphant collapse into belief.\\
Only the quiet failure of all the explanations \\
he had been so eager to produce — \\
and beneath that, \\
something older and less comfortable: \\
the recognition that the world did not, \\
in fact, \\
feel any need to conform to his understanding.

He approached slowly.\\
He reached toward the glass — \\
then stopped.

There was nothing left to test.\\
Nothing to expose.\\
Nothing to correct.

He let his hand fall.

The first gray light of morning \\
had begun to touch the upper windows.\\
The dust lay as before.\\
The cracked plaster, \\
the empty niche, \\
the broken kneeler.\\
Nothing had changed.

Only the light.

For the first time in years, he knelt.
